What If Things Were Different

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T and I were sitting around our living room recently, playing with the kiddos, and I asked him if he ever thought about what life would be like had I not gotten pregnant, and only Nur was our child at the moment. This is of course something that is hard and painful to think about, because I DID get pregnant, and there IS a TT, and because of that, life is SO much better.  But it is something interesting to think about.  My observations if we only did have Nur as our child, is that life would be easier, that's for sure.  At the moment, Nur is the easier child to parent.  I think this is mainly due to his age, and nothing else, because I sure don't consider TT high maintenance.  She's the only 6 and a half month old I've ever parented, so things we go through with her, I'm assuming are just normal things for a baby her age.  I've also never parented an almost 14 month old, but Nur is at an easy stage, that's for sure.

So, let's discuss these kids of ours!  Nur continues to do so well.  I can't believe he's the same child that T met in August, and I met in October.  Not only does he look different, but he acts differently.  Here is a photo comparison.

Nur in August

 Nur in January

He has grown SO much!  He's gotten so much more hair, and somehow in these months he's turned into less of a baby, and more of a toddler.  I'm so happy with his development, but this is all going TOO fast. And because he now has so much hair, I went and got some special hair products, and I love what we got! It really brings out his curls. 

Nur continues to love food, and I can't wait for his 15 month appointment in March to see where he is at weight-wise.  Just looking at him (and holding him!) he is definitely getting heavier, and he's getting longer.  He eats anything.  Lately, T and I have been trying to cook more and give him that food mashed up instead of baby food jars.  The only problem is, is that we don't cook much, but we are working on that.  I would say his favorite food at the moment is sweet potatoes.

Nur still doesn't have any teeth, but by the amount he drools, I would say we are close to seeing some.  Of course I've been saying that since August, so we shall see. 

Nur also loves us.  I mean, he really loves us! I know I shouldn't sound surprised, but I didn't know what to expect with bonding and attachment, but it's going well, even though T and I basically broke every rule there was.  I get home from work first, and Nur sees me, and claps, and screams, and then crawls over to me and whines until I pick him up.  And he is SUCH a cuddler.  Sometimes he just wants to be picked up, and he puts his head on my shoulder, and we just cuddle.  Such a sweet boy!

And he is learning so much!  He loves to push on his toy walker, and walk all over the place.  He still isn't an independent walker, but I think it's only a matter of time.  He loves playing rough with his Baba. . . too rough for this Mama, but he just sits here and giggles.  He continues his Early Intervention 0-3 PT Therapy twice a month, and his therapist is always so impressed by his progress.  Nur is such a smart boy, and I can't imagine life without him.  He's definitely a member of our family. :)

And TT.  I also can't believe how much she has grown.  This is also happening TOO fast!

TT in August

 TT in January

TT has also started eating baby food and not just formula, although I have to say she is a very finicky eater, and I'd have to say she comes by that honestly.  So far, she prefers fruit more than veggies. Although she is still getting the majority of her calories from formula. 

TT LOVES pulling hair and sucking on people's faces.  Weird, I know.  I had the brilliant idea to cut my hair after the babies arrived thinking it would be easier.  Now I'm growing it out so I can tie it back again.  Seriously, I had to resort to wearing this hat to protect my head.  But, she somehow manages to find the baby hairs on the back of my head and pulls those. 

TT now can sit all by herself, although sometimes she falls over.  But I think she is getting better at it every day.  She loves sitting on the floor and playing with toys, and she loves hearing the sound of her own voice.  Oh, we love our baby girl. 

TT is a bit of a mama's girl at the moment.  At times I think I've created a monster.  She whines when I don't hold her, even if I'm in the same room as her, and as soon as I pick her up, she is happy.  Maybe I did create a monster, but my babies will only be little once, so if they want to be held all day, everything else in life can wait. :)

The best thing about Nur and TT is their interaction together.  I love seeing these two play together!  I think they really love each other.  Really. . . they do. :)  When TT naps in her bedroom, Nur will sit outside her closed door and babble to her.  I think he misses her when she naps.  They play so well together, although Nur likes to steal all of TT's toys.  He's at a stage where he wants whatever someone else has.  But TT holds her own, and they can often times be found pulling on the same toy.

TT is the typical younger sister, and is always "harrassing" Nur.  He is so good natured though, and allows it. 

 A lot of times, these two just look at each other, babble, and then laugh.  I know they aren't really twins in the sense that they shared a womb, but they have twin talk and a twin bond, that is for sure. 

 Life just wouldn't be the same without both Nur and TT.  And although this isn't how we planned things, we are both so grateful that this is how things worked out.

I'm going to leave these pics up for a week or so and then take them down.  Apparently goog.le images has some of my pics, and I'm not sure how it happened, but I don't like it, so I'm taking extra precautions.